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phOtO Of thE dAy: AlAs nIyEbE nA!
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hAbErdAy dEArEst frOm yOUr hIlAw nA mAnUgAng...
This is your controversial FB message on my sister's wall...
one reason why i love dearest, she's easy to please. just a simple dinner and overflowing greetings from my friends and relatives HAPPY na sya.. HABERDEY again DEAREST!! mhua..mhua.. tsup..tsup.. ;)
1It should not be a big deal... So, why am I making a fuss about it?
You've greeted Lie and Gara on their birthdays but you've known them personally. Though I'm a little bit surprised it can be considered as normal. But to greet my Mom on her birthday??? It's just not your style... It seems that you've suddenly grown a heart! Don't get me wrong... I'm not saying that you are a heartless person. It is not just like you. I would understand if you just PM my sister. But you did something unusual. Out of the ordinary! I would consider it a milestone for you. Showing that you care... that you give a damn! Not minding who would read your message. It's nice... that's so sweet of you. Bet my Mom appreciate it so much.
Maybe there's nothing much to it. Just a simple greeting 'coz you're feeling generous at that time... and it has nothing to do with me. Why the hell does it have to do with me?!!!
"Feelingera!"... that's who I am. But you can't blame me. It's you that changed... and you keep surprising me. I like this change in you... but it is making me sad too...L
Please don't expect too much...
thE sOUnd Of OnE hEArt brEAkIng by kArEn kUnAwIcz
Ever come across this zen koan that JD Salinger used in one of his books?You know, the one that asks what is the sound of one hand clapping. I don't know the answer to that one. But ask me what's the sound of one heart breaking and might have an answer. Welcome to the dark side of love.
What is the sound of one heartbreaking?
It is the sound of someone curled up in a tiny ball crying softly in the night, the sound of the first unwanted teardrop touching your skin, it's the sound of a telephone that doesn't ring, the sound of regret pounding inside your brain with every heartbeat, it's the whispers of the toy animals he gave you.
It's the shuffling of feet walking away from you, the sound of your soul shattering into a million pieces at recognizing the word "goodbye," it's the soundtrack of memories torturing you,it's the sound of feeble hands trying to push back the obstinate hands of time, it's the sound of a cherub's dying breath, the sound of all those years disappearing in the vortex of Cupid's kitchen sink, it's the unrelenting, plaintive baby meows of an abandoned kitten outside an ignoring door.
It's the sound of the rain that doesn't ever stop, the sound of all the doors in the world shutting and closing in your face at the same time, of raging, howling storms in the night when there's no one there to hold you, the sound of your voice as it screams back at you, the echo of "I love you" burning holes in you, the sound your heart makes as it tells you to lie still because nothing you will ever do will matter without love.
The sound of the waves at the polluted beach you went to as it moves from the shore and crashes inside your mind, of the sniffles that make up your pathetic "SOS-to-the-world," the cracking of the brittleblack-red petals from the sidewalk vendor roses he gave, the sound ofthe music he used to make going to your gut.
The sound of things in your room being thrown around and landing on the floor, the caress of sharpened kitchen knives on skin, the sound your throat makes as you swallow your saltiest tear. It's the sound of your own voice calling out to someone who isn't there, of winged creatures dying and falling on a city pavement, of terms of endearment used a hundred times a day struggling to crawl into a vacuum of forgetfulness, it's the sound of your own sobs keeping you company, it's the cold, uncaring stillness of the air you share your space with.
Destruction isn't always as noisy as bombs exploding. Sometimes the ultimate catastrophes are as quiet as feather falling on the floor of a Zen monastery. No one else can really hear your heart breaking except you.
sEcOnd chOIcE
"Most people don't marry their first choice." This is what Father Tom says in his sermon last Sunday. But he says that the second choice does not necessarily mean that they are second rate.
My greatest fear is getting married ala Jerry Maguire. You know the part when they are watching the video of the wedding and Dorothy (Renee Zellweger) noticed how unhappy Jerry (Tom Cruise) was during the ceremony. I don't want that kind of scenario. I'd rather be alone than be with someone who chose me because he has no other choice... because his first choice is not available. I want to be chosen because I'm the one he is truly, madly, deeply in love with. The one who he imagine spending the rest of his life with... the one he want to grow old with.
OUr nEw sOng - vcr
VCR - the XX
You used to have all the answers
And you, you still have them too
And we, we live half in the daytime
And we, we live half at night
Watch things on vcrs
With me and talk about big love
I think we're superstars
You say you think we are the best thing
And you, you just know
You just do
I wanna find myself by the sea
In anothers company
By the sea
I wanna go out to the pier
I'm gonna dive and have no fear
Cos you, you just know
You just do
Watch things on vcrs
With me and talk about big love
I think we're superstars
You say you think we are the best thing
And you, you just know
You just do
You just do
Watch things on vcrs
With me and talk about big love
I think we're superstars
You say you think we are the best thing
And you, you just know
You just do
you liked this post of mine... 'coz deep in our hearts we both knew that this is our new song.
Krismas and Haberday Gifts
Gifts... Gifts... and more Gifts!
Ang pinakamasarap kapag Christmas and Birthdays ay ang makareceive ng regalo. And I received the best gifts on these two occasions. And I'm so excited to document it all here..
'wag nang tanungin kung kanino ang pinakada-best. Chos!
Ang pinakamasarap kapag Christmas and Birthdays ay ang makareceive ng regalo. And I received the best gifts on these two occasions. And I'm so excited to document it all here..
'wag nang tanungin kung kanino ang pinakada-best. Chos!
Most Requested...
Ang pinagkahirapan kong i-claim na Starbucks Planner...Eto ata ang pinakawinish kong mareceive ng birthday ko. Wala kasing ganyang raket dito sa Dubai. Only in the Philippines lang ata ang pagpapakalunod sa starbucks coffee from September to December para makaearn ng stickers para sa limited edition planner. Kaya nung pinalad akong mabiyayaan ng claim stub ng pinsan ko na si Anne (na adik sa pangongolekta ng planners) e nagpunta na kaagad ako sa mall para i-claim.
Sa sobrang dami ng Starbucks sa Trinoma sa pang-apat at pinakaliblib na outlet ko pa 'to nakuha. Nagkakaubusan na kasi ng stock. At medyo swerte na rin kasi last stock na daw ng wood design yung nakuha ko. Hindi ko kasi type yung metallic lalo naman ang velvet!
Ang goal ko ngayon e i-fully utilized ang Planner... so watched out for my handwriting, na according to Yte e parang sulat ng kaliwang paa. :P
Books! Books! Books!
Mawawala ba naman ang books sa wishlist ko. Kaya sinamantala ko nang magrequest na books para sa exchange gift with my College Friends and Neighbors.
Mommy Gabs gave me Three Cups of Tea and The First Book sa Millenium Trilogy ni Stieg Larsson : The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo.
While Mommy Edgar naman ang nagbigay ng 2nd book of the Millenium Trilogy: The Girl Who Played With Fire.
Si Pareng Noel at ang aking kanta...
"Ang nakalipas ay ibabalik natin..."Sobrang paborito ko 'tong kanta na 'to. In fact I want it to be sung on my wedding day. At dabest ang version ni Pareng Noel Cabangon. Kaya kasali yung cd nia sa wishlist ko sa exchange gift, Buti na lang searching si fave sis ng haberday gift sa 'kin kaya inagaw nya sa mommy ko kaya sya ang naggibsung sa akin. At walang tapon sa album. Kaya paos na si Pareng Noel sa kakaulit ko sa pakikinig. Hehe!
Ang Reyna ng Panghaharbat
Kikay kit from Kikay friend...
Ang sarap ng may kikay friend! I was just admiring this makeup kit of Yte habang nagreretouch sya sa kotse, bigla ba namang sabihing "Gusto mo? Sa'yo na."
Napasagot tuloy ako ng 'Seryoso ka?"
E seryoso nga sya. Saka kahit sabihin nya pa na Joke! joke! joke! Topo topo barega na noh! Kaya balik na naman ang aking kikayness! :)!
x.s. good decision talaga ang pakikipagreconcile ko. Me pakinabang din tong butete na 'to! joke lang Bru! Labyu!
Isa pang set ng kakikayan courtesy of Becs and Yham...Harbat na ring matatawag. Naalala ko na nagwowork si Jho na hipag ni Becs sa Makeup section sa mall. Nagpatanong lang ako ng price ng lipstick, the next na magkita kami dala na nila lahat yan. At say mo, FREE! As in! puro Rimmel pa at orig itetch!
Sobrang happy with all the kikay things... in time para sa pagbabalik ng aking kakikayan. Kesehodang ma-late basta ayos ang muk-ap ng bakla! *^_^*
Philippine flag on my watch...
Kung paano napasakamay ko ang Unisilver watch ni chai? Ganito kasi yun... Habang nagdi-dinner with Chai, Noren, Bha and Wines sa Super Bowl, Gateway. Napansin ko ang nasasabing relo...
Ako: "Ay ang ganda naman ng watch mo Migs"
Bha: Gusto mo? eh walang problema. Ibibigay na sa'yo ni Friend yan.
Chai: Ay oo Migs, meron pa kong isa, Philippine Map naman
Thought cloud (Parang gusto ko din yun... KAPAL!!! :p)
More Kikay Gifts...
ang Regalo ni Ilumina...
Teatro + Ilumina = Gypsie Earing from Yhan. Napakaflambouyant Bru! Baklang-bakla! type tuloy ng mga gay friends. Balak hiramin sa pagrampa. "Kaw na ' Teh!"
Charmed Ones…
Ang hayskul BFF ni Kapataid na si Tonet e ayaw magbigay ng bigas kasi me nabili na daw na gift for me. Pasaway! Pero in fairnes... Luvettt!!!
Regalo ng mga Senadora
Eeyore's gift to Piglet...Luv this personalized tumbler made by Marse Noren. Nageffort sa mga pix and syempre me picture yan ni piglet. nagtatago nga lang. Hehe!
ang Wallet na Maswerte...
The Biggest SURPRISE!!!
Ikaw at si Johnoy...
hIgIt pA sA bUhAy kO...
“Do you love or do you crush?” Haayyy!!! Nangungulit na naman si kuya Eric.Syempre mapapangiti lang ako. Kunwari hindi ko narinig.
“Mahal mo?” Pang ilang beses na ‘ ba ‘to natanong?
“Haayyy!!!” (ulit!)
Eto na naman ako parang sabit sa lakad ng barkada niya. Kelan kaya kami aalis na kaming dalawa lang? Not that I don’t like his friends… kaya lang we don’t have a chance to talk and catch up on each other’s lives. Para kasi kaming me mga fans na nanonood at sinusubaybayan lahat ng galaw namin. At ganito na lang palagi ang nangyayari… Palagi na lang akong nasa hotseat!
“Jovs, ano mahal mo?” Nakupo! Si Richie naman ngayon ang bumabanat. Patay na!
“Bakit hindi mo masagot? Ganyan talaga ang mga taga-PUP. Wala kasing canteen… hindi nananghalian… kaya hayan!
“Ako na naman ang nakita mo. Ano ba kasi yung pangalan nung taga-PUP na bumasted sa’yo?” Napapailing na tanong ko.
“Ano na nga Jovs? Do you love or do you crush?” Lasing na talaga si Kuya Eric. Ayaw akong tantanan.
“I only hate… I hate you!!! Kulit mo kasi!” Medyo halatang naaasar na ko sa mga tanong nila.
“Papaiyakin mo lang iyong kaibigan namin. Niloloko mo lang siya!”
Eto na naman sila pinaparatangan ako ng kung anu-ano. Feeling ko tuloy ang sama-sama kong tao. Ano bang gagawin ko para tumigil na sila? Hindi ko na tuloy siya matingnan. Baka magalit na siya. Medyo me pagkapikon pa naman siya. Ano kayang iniisip niya kapag tintanong ako ng barkada niya tapos hindi ako makasagot? Siya lang naman kasi ang iniisip ko.Baka magalit siya…
Bakit ba kasi kailangan nilang malaman? Minsan gusto ko nang sagutin kaya lang hindi naman iyon dapat pinag-uusapan ng ganon na lang. Para kasing tinatanong lang nila kung gusto ko bang kumain?
Ano naman kaya ang magiging reaksiyon niya kapag sinagot ko ‘yung tanong na ‘yon? Alam ko naman na matatakot siya. Baka layuan niya na ako. Saka gusto kong sagutin kapag siya na ‘yung nagtanong… siya lang naman ang may karapatan na makaalam ng sagot ko.
“E Mark, mahal mo ba?” Baling ni Kuya Eric sa kanya.
“HIGIT PA SA BUHAY KO!”
dElEtEd phOnE nUmber...
I’m not sure if you are telling the truth…
How could you not save the number that I have been using for months to text and call you? You even used that number to text me. Now you’re telling me that it was my old number that you have saved on your phone.
Somehow my number got deleted again…
I just don’t know what I did this time…
AnO dAw yUn?
Paano mo nasabi na sa’yo siya? Kelan pa nangyari ‘yun? Sa palagay mo ba naniwala siya sa iyo nu’n? Malabo siguro…
Hindi mo naman kasi siya pinapahalagahan. Palagi mo lang sya binabalewala. Kaya hindi mo sya masisisi kung ganun ‘yung naging reaksyon niya.
Nakita ko yung pagkagulat niya sa sinabi mo. Alam niya kasi wala naman siyang halaga sa iyo. Alam niya hinding-hindi mo siya magugustuhan.
Nakakalungkot nga e. Halos lahat nagsasabi na bagay kayo. Kaya lang kayo namang dalawa ang ayaw. Nagkukunwari kayo na wala lang kayo. Pero meron naman talaga. ‘Yun nga lang mukhang naggagamitan na lang kayo. Pano na kayo ngayon?...
Paninindigan mo ba iyong sinabi mo sa harap ng mga kaibigan mo? Nasaktan ka ba sa naging sagot niya?
Kung say iyo na siya…kanya ka na ba?
Sana hindi ka lang nagiging selfish. Paano kung ayaw mo lang kasi siya ipamigay kasi nga gusto mo lang na sa iyo siya, pero ikaw pagmamay-ari pa rin ng iba? Hindi ba dapat lang na palayain mo na siya?
Siguro dapat bago mo siya angkinin na iyo, patunayan mo muna sa kanya na kanya ka na nga. Buong-buo, walang kahati… walang kaagaw.
Baka sakaling maniwala na siya…
InUmAn sEssIOns...
Day 1 - April 17, 2009 (Mint @ The Fort Strip)
Technically, it’s still Eva’s Bday. After office hours, Eva, Ehloi, Gelai and I went to Mint at The Fort Strip. I have not been drinking for awhile now but when I got hold of the cold beer I kept asking for more. But it was already late and the bar was about to close. So, we only had 3 bottles each. But I had 3 1/2 bottles ‘coz Gelai can’t finish hers. I liked their Dinakdakan, recommended by Ehloi. But I’m so bitin! I want more beer!!!
Day 2 - April 18, 2009 (Kankaloo & Gerardo’s Bar in Panay)
Since i was so bitin the other night, I decided to go out on Saturday night. I almost spend the night at home ‘coz he texted me sooo late in the evening. I would have have a hard time asking permission from the oldies. But since i’m so thirsty(for an ice cold beer) and BORED, I still went out. W/o the permission, coz they’re both asleep (lucky me!). I had 1 1/2 bottle of Sanmig lyt at their house. I finished his beer for him. That has been my role the past few days… Tirador ng bawas na Beer!!!
It was really awkward! First, he was not there to meet me. He’s in the john and his two buddies were there who were not aware that I’ll be crashing in their session. Plus the fact that I had this big crush on his bestfriend. But just like what I’ve said, “HAD”. Past tense…
Okey, going back I juz listen to them talk about this girl we both know and I butt in once i awhile. After he’s done ‘magpaganda’ and we finished all the beers we went to Timog. He brought this car which according to him owned by their neighbor and it juz being parked at their garage. But of course I didn’t believe him. Neways, I made him choose the place as I have not been going out that much. We went to this place called ‘Gerardo’s” in Panay Avenue. According to him is open ’til 5am and it’s the popular hang out for call center agents.
Since I’m in so much luck that night we again, run into his buddies. So, we got the usual tuksuhan, that it was really impossible to have a conversation ‘coz we have an audience. But I still enjoy the night. My goal was to get drunk and I guess I was really drunk ‘coz i had a hangover the next day and I can’t seem to remember that he was with me… Ooops! sorry…
Day 3 - April 21, 2009 (Some Shawarma place in Edsa Central)
After a boring and useless day in the office, Gibs and I decided to have a drinking spree in Edsa Central. The usual 3 bottles each, 4 am curfew time ended in 5 bottles and 6am in the morn. The mahabahabang kwentuhan needs a mahabahabang inuman. Gibo was the story-teller and I was the attentive drunk listener with side comments. But I can’t tell you the whole story ‘coz he will literally kill me. We just missed Cris. So, i set up a date with her on Saturday. We will go out eventhough it’s just the three of us. I got really drunk and was lucky to get home alive… what’s new?!
Day 4 - April 24, 2009 (Central Bar @ Pioneer)
It was the initiation rite for Ryan and Rio. The newbie in Americas. Ryan was the one who brought us to this place in Pioneer. We were looking for a new hang-out place that still open ’til morning ‘coz we always got out of the office at around 1 am and usually the places we went to are about to close. So, we decided to try this one out.So, off we went there. And I’m glad we went. The place is juz an ordinary drinking place. With rows of tables and chairs, loud music, cheap beer and cheap pulutan. There was a big crowd that night. We even had pictures taken with EB Babe Madel. Since, i’m with a young crowd everybody was makulet and carefree. Rio even started a game to make the inuman more exciting.
So, off we went there. And I’m glad we went. The place is juz an ordinary drinking place. With rows of tables and chairs, loud music, cheap beer and cheap pulutan. There was a big crowd that night. We even had pictures taken with EB Babe Madel. Since, i’m with a young crowd everybody was makulet and carefree. Rio even started a game to make the inuman more exciting.
We finished up 5 buckets of san mig lyt, 3 pitchers of “bad trip” (a mixed drink that is the especialty of the place) and for our plulutan, a platter of chicken salpicao and variety of chicken intestine, gizzard and pork bbq. We stayed until 5am. Actually, the bouncers were asking us to leave ‘coz we are the only one left there. Pasaway talaga!
We got drunk, we had fun and we paid cheap. Not bad for a Friday night out…
Day 5 - April 25, 2009 (Kuwago’s Bar @ Pioneer)
Though still recuperating from last nyt’s drinking spree, Gibs and I met up with Cris and Jen for another session. Gibo wanted to see a band, I just wanted to eat pasta and hopefully be able to survive the night. So i dediced we go again to Pioneer and try the bar there that I saw last Friday. We’re supposed to meet at 10pm but it rained, so i was too tired to go out. I met up with them at Tapa King’s in Edsa Central around 11:30pm. After I had my pasta and met with Jen, we headed out to Pioneer. At first we thought there’s no band. And we’re thinking we chose the wrong place ‘coz the music was too loud! It was impossible to have a conversation and it was sooo dark!. But the food and beer are also cheap.
The place is called Kuwago’s Bar. I heard it before in the radio. There was one in Makati Avenue and another in Malate. The one in Pioneer is like a two-story nipa hut. Adorned with banka’s and sagwan. Suddenly, I miss Manila bay and rowing. I juz can’t figure out why there’s a mini airplane on the ceiling. It’s sum kinda off with the theme.
Anyways, we found out later that it was an acoustic bar. The performers are JJ and Momo. They fraternal twins with great talents. I’m really amazed on them especially with JJ ‘coz she plays the guitar really well. Plus the fact that they know a lot of new songs and can really sing and play it well. And they sung the songs with passion. I would definitely watch their other gigs.
Rio was supposed to follow us. But he was in marikina and I guess he got really drunk that’s why he didn’t make it. As for the four of us, we just had 4 bottles each. 4 1/2 for me coz I’m the official ‘tirador ng bawas na beer”. This time it’s gibson’s beer. We went to KFC Edsa Central for breakfast then went our separate way home.
…for next week I’m not sure if there will be another drinking session. But alcohol is still flowing in my veins. I guess i’ll rest for this week. But one can never be too sure...
lIfe, bEEr And rEntOn
Yesterday, I texted a friend and asked her if we can have dinner. Unfortunately, she had other plans. So I just stayed home and watched rented films. Then she texted me this afternoon… telling me about the plan of a get-to-together with the barkada this coming weekend. As much as I wanted to see her ‘coz we haven’t seen each other for months I decline the offer. I don’t want to be with too many people right now. I just want to be with a few selected friends…Those that I can really talk to and be who I really am. I’ve started my hide-and-seek game again. The usual not returning of phone calls/texts, not answering e-mails, no-show on special occasions. I’m just not into the bonding mood right now. So I’m doing the underground…
For months I’ve only seen one friend… It just happened that he was at the right place at the right time. So, when I texted him, he arrived immediately. But of course, the group I’m with that night suspected that he is my BF (Haha! Need to tell him about that so we can both have a good laugh).
Although we seldom see each other I know that when life is throwing its worst prank on us we will be there to help each other out. But I still have hope that one day we will be drowning ourselves with beer, not anymore bitching about life but celebrating it. After all we’re both choosing life… that’s what Mark Renton taught us and that’ s what he told me before and still telling me now.
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