"Most people don't marry their first choice." This is what Father Tom says in his sermon last Sunday. But he says that the second choice does not necessarily mean that they are second rate.
My greatest fear is getting married ala Jerry Maguire. You know the part when they are watching the video of the wedding and Dorothy (Renee Zellweger) noticed how unhappy Jerry (Tom Cruise) was during the ceremony. I don't want that kind of scenario. I'd rather be alone than be with someone who chose me because he has no other choice... because his first choice is not available. I want to be chosen because I'm the one he is truly, madly, deeply in love with. The one who he imagine spending the rest of his life with... the one he want to grow old with.
I have my first choice. He is the ony person that has a great power over me. He can make me feel either extreme happiness or extreme sorrow. He is my yin and yang, the black and white, the alpha and omega. He is my only choice and he is my first rate. I chose to tell him how much I adore him. I chose to show that love for him whenever possible. I chose to love him now in silence. "You are what you love, not what loves you" That is what Charlie Kauffman (Nicolas Cage) says in the film Adaptation. Even if he will not choose me I will still choose him. My first and only choice... until my heart says otherwise.
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